• Me: I'm feeling quite good today
• Body: How? You're fat
• Self harm: How? I'm on yours arm as proof you are not
• Mirror: How? Look at yourself
• Paranoia: How? Your friends hate you
• Mind: How? You're a total failure
• Me: Oh, right, yeah.

went round to my ex’s house today, and basically he was acting like he just wanted a bit of fun between us just now and i cant handle fun cause well im still madly in love with him…. but i cant handle not having fun because then ill loose him.